At the end of this day

I remember sitting in ICT at the beginning of this year waiting to meet and pray with my co-leader. I didn't know what God had in store for me and, coming out of a serious relationship, I wasn't sure if I had made the right choice or if I could do things alone. Today is April 9, easter friday, and through nearly 8 months of molding, God has fulfilled every one of his promises, promises I had known in my heart but did not trust in my mind.

Several months ago, God put something in my heart that told me to start a discipleship with another one of the girls in my cell group; he also told me to encourage my co-leader to start discipling one of the boys. We started in the middle of February and since then, God has remained faithful to his calling. It has been so amazing meeting each week and just seeing what God has in store for that day.

Through these past couple of weeks, God has blessed our cell group and discipleship meetings tremendously. I guess, coming back from blast (what we call our cell group) tonight, I didn't want to go to sleep without documenting what he's been doing. Because that's the thing, I don't ever want to forget. I never want to forget how he answers prayers or how, when you say "yes God I want to" he steps in and turns your life around. There is still so much I have to learn, still so much further to go until I can echo one-tenth of what John the baptist said when he told his disciples "[more of him and less of me]" (3.30). Yes Lord, I want "more of you and less of me."

I think the best part about this whole thing is that God has been working in the smallest of ways and in the quietest of times, especially when I'm not looking. The best part is how he has remained faithful even in times when I fall out of line with him, when my heart is so far away, distracted. Looking at the whole picture has allowed me to see his grace and this is important because I know when I wake up tomorrow, I will be faced with situations where I might not be able to make the right decisions. I don't want to forget so this is a reminder for myself that tonight, God made us laugh; that tonight, he came and sat down beside us and revealed himself; that tonight, all 9 of us sat around the kitchen table carefully reading his word - and it became alive. Andy, Dan, Evelyn, Grace, Andrea, Pat, Billy and Sam - watching what God's doing in you and hearing you guys respond tonight to his voice was incredible. You guys are incredible and I know I'll miss this group when I go up this summer. Bluestraws, pineapple, pilaf, muscles, and John 9 : reminders for myself.