Thursday, 11 September 2008

When it all collides...

Forrest Gump was right. Life is a box of chocolates and really, you truly never know what you're going to get. Jet-lagged and disorientated, I flew in late last night from an abrupt trip to Hong Kong to come home to an acceptance from the University of Cambridge. My mind has still yet to wrap itself around the concept. I must've checked the application status on my computer like a billion times. It's silly but I'm afraid it might go away.

In this most recent turn of events, God has handed me a deck of cards that I can't seem to make sense of. On the one hand, I am elated but it's only really my mind that's speaking at the moment. People have asked me if I will go, what my decision will be and understandably, my answer is a little silly. Some may even label it as hypocritical or infused with some sort of false humility but really, right now, it's just honesty.

I am happy. I am so grateful for all that has come this way in the past few weeks. I look back and cannot think of one thing more that I would ask of God. The blessings have just continued to flow. My hesitation in answering with an elated "yes" and my explanation of needing to take a few days to think about the whole situation is not because I don't want to go. Rather, it is rooted in the fact that I need to feel it, I need to feel God assure my heart before I hit that "accept" button. I need Him first. A friend told me tonight that often times our prayer times are worth it even when things may seem "obvious". I take him to heart on that one.

My heart is filled with mixed emotions. But to those that have been elated for me, I can only say that you make me happy. And I am blessed because of you. Thank you for shouting my heart's desire when I need to sit and think and get things right first.

1 comment:

novice said...

AUTHOR: can
DATE: 05/13/2005 04:20:13 PM

he he he...i'm happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

COMMENT:
AUTHOR: sel
DATE: 05/23/2005 02:43:47 AM

God is gracious isn't He? i'm so proud of you too! I know that He is the ultimate provider! I hope you have an enjoyable experience!!

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