Sometimes the path is so clear. Each day is a new opportunity; each day has purpose. And whether that purpose is the same as or different from those around you matters little in the grand scheme of things. You walk by the beat of your own heart. You walk assured of God's purpose and all you can see is His face.
Then there are other days where you stumble and fall for no apparent reason. It's the most disheartening feeling and you feel lost again. I have those days. They come and cloud up my vision; they put obstacles between me and God; most detrimental they make me forget His goodness and promises. Sometimes the waters become muddy again.
But here's the thing. It's because I know what it feels to see clearly that I can have hope. And more and more I'm realising that this is God's grace. It's not the ability to follow your purpose to the 't' once you find it. You doubt and you get scared. You lose your way. But if you humble yourself and come back then He will come and take you by the hand; He will lead again. That's what I'm praying for; that's what's happened before.
I've learned that abberations do not cause separation.
Since Christmas, my best friend has been praying for hope for my two other best friends and me. She reminded us of that this morning in an email and the water became a bit clearer; her act of praying reminded me that hope is God's way of fulfilling - completing - His promise. At least, that is my interpertation thus far. With worldly hope, there is always the possibility that whatever is hoped for might not happen. The very essence of hope lies in its possibility. But with God's hope, its very essence lies in its guarantee. The simplest and most profound things are revealed in paradoxes.
So I'm going to hope. And this dark day? This too will pass.
Tomorrow is my best friend's birthday. She turns 23. It's a good day and it reminds me that there are always things to celebrate, always things to be thankful for. I'm thankful for her, all that she is. Happy Birthday Desiree Yow.
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AUTHOR: An
DATE: 01/31/2007 02:35:38 PM
*smiles* To the darkest of days I say: it has been a good day, afterall.
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