Mid-night

Half-eaten bowl of sweet chinese dessert. Clean room. Brother typing away at his application in the next - Oh, how I hope he gets in. Thoughts heavy with the weight of some unknown sadness. I think my soul is lonely.

I didn't realize then - actually, I hadn't noticed it at all this semester - until I got to spend some time with two of my best friends this past weekend. Oh how I missed them. How I miss having someone to play and laugh with. I feel like I'm five. And how I miss them still, knowing that in a mere couple of days, after our last birthday celebration, another one will return to her schooling. Nothing gold can stay right?

This night reminds me of something I have not felt in such a long time. I wish I could explain the utter tranquility, the calming silence and the clean room ;) In these times, I feel as if the world sort of stops and it's a wonderful stillness when the only thing you can hear is the "click click click" of your nimble fingers, typing away. Thoughts run free.

To be quite honest, I'm not sure what my purpose for venturing here is tonight. Maybe it's the stillness, maybe it's coolness. Or, more likely, maybe it's knowing that I do it all over again tomorrow, alone.