More often than not, we stumble on blindly toward our goals. More often than not,
we walk on blindly because we are disillusioned.
Been taking stock of the things I have been pursuing lately. And I am learning that
what I may have thought I wanted may not be all that I want or make it out to be.
God empties the things we chase after and when we are left with the empty pieces,
He speaks and tells us: 'find redemption in me'.
This week has been a redemptive week - in the humblest of ways. Wednesday, Friday,
Saturday, Sunday - all were filled with friendships and an understanding that reminds
you how warm life can be, and is. My best friend in Cambridge is leaving next week
and I know that this town will seem a little more empty than before. But I am more
than happy and excited for her, and I know that this will not be the last time that we
'do life together'. Despite opposite personalities, I have learned over these past two weeks
that it's okay for me to be me and for her to be her. And realising that has allowed me
to love that much more freely, and learn from her unmarred spirit.
I am walking on this mountain, the top of which I thought I once could see so clearly.
But as Pastor Julian said last Sunday, sometimes you need to lose sight of the goal in
order to get there. How true. So what do we hold onto instead?
Hebrews 3:1 - 'Therefore, dear brothers, who share in the heavenly calling, fix your
thoughts on Jesus the apostle and high priest whom we confess'. When we cannot
fix our eyes, we fix our thoughts. Or rather, it is because we cannot fix our eyes that we
fix our thoughts. Our mind's eye.
In one sense, I am still where I am a week ago - a bit saddened and subdued. But the
difference is that today there is a peace. Will miss you friend, but I know that we'll
both be more than okay.
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