I stumbled onto an old picture tonight and it kind of caught my breath for a moment. Pictures have a way of doing that; they remind you of a moment in time, a moment frozen, suspended, a snapshot of a feeling.
Tonight I had the privilege of talking to a friend. Granted, it was brief and over the computer but it felt so good to talk to her. What hurt so much was that I couldn't respond with smiles and excited tones. I guess I just missed her so much that I didn't know how to tell her what was going on inside. It just hurt.
The beautiful thing is that later tonight I stumbled onto her page, and reading what she wrote made me realize that though I sometimes may not see it, she misses me too.
I think lately I've wanted to test a lot of my relationships, and though I know I probably will never do it - except maybe for tonight - I've slowly pushed myself away. There are times when you just want someone to bombard you with how much they love you. You don't want to know why but you just want to know that you still matter, that you still mean something.
Pictures are beautiful things; the memories just sometimes hurt.
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hey tru! i love this new look =) i really wish i had more time to do up my pages (i have a coupla that are left unattended to) but all i do on the computer now is excel charts and email. annndd...maybe the occasional ebay shopping =) haha..you know me. anyway, since i do a lot of shopping online nowadays, i was thinkinga bout purchasing contacts online aswell. since there are so many disount contact websites, i wasn't sure which ones were legit. but i remembered that you once worked at an optomatrist's office so i was wondering if you would know the price of a box of CV ENCORE TORIC contacts...it's kinda a shot in the dark since i don't know if you'd know the exact prices of contacts...but just thought i'd try. i still have a month until i need to refill them but anyhow, email me, call me whatever. and when are you coming up to edmonton again? i think i may take a calgary trip with doug sometime in the summer. ok. take care!
April 18, 2004 | Unregistered Commenter Leanne
I know what you mean about wanting to be bombarded with reminders that you're missed and you're wanted and you're important. Stamp of validation, right?
April 19, 2004 | Unregistered Commenter An
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